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Cheating Is a Choice Not a Mistake…

Posted in Dating, Love Hate, Narcissist/Sociopath with tags , , , , , , , , on October 18, 2012 by sexandmiami

Relationships are difficult enough to get over without the complication of cheating thrown into the mix. This added element adds more confusion and doubts as you get over the relationship. Below are some tips on how to get over a cheating boyfriend.

Tips to Get Over Your Cheating Boyfriend

Dump Him (if you haven’t already)

A guy who cheats is someone who doesn’t really want to be with you. No matter how much he may claim he does, remember actions speak louder than words. If after dumping him you want to give him a chance to prove he deserves you go ahead, but don’t stay in the relationship as he works to show he is worth your time.

You are Not Responsible for His Actions

Often times cheaters will try to convince you that it is your fault they strayed. It’s not. They’ll try and make you think that if only you had done this, that and another that they wouldn’t be tempted to cheat. No matter what you may have done or not done you didn’t make them cheat.

Change His Name in Your Cell

When you get lonely or drunk you might find yourself tempted to call him. Don’t. To help you resist this, change his name (and maybe contact photo) to something like ‘asshole’ or ‘dickhead.’ Don’t delete his number all together that way you’ll be able to screen any calls from him. If he has something worth listening to he can leave a voicemail.

Invest in Yourself

Resist falling on the self pity wagon. Instead, spend some time making yourself feel great. Go to the gym. Spend some extra time on your hobbies. Take excessively long bubble baths with a glass of wine and a good book. Hang out with your girlfriends (who you’ve probably been neglecting a bit). Do everything you enjoy that you never had enough time for as a couple.

Remember the Bad Things

After any breakup it is easy to find yourself looking back on the relationship with rose colored glasses. Prevent this by making a list of your cheating (ex)boyfriend’s good and bad qualities. Once you are finished rip off the good side and burn or recycle it. Hang the bad list somewhere you’ll see it often, perhaps on your bathroom mirror, so you will be reminded of those negative qualities when you get lonely and start thinking he wasn’t all that bad. You deserve great, not mediocre.

Listen to Some Empowering Songs

Make a breakup recovery music mix. Include songs like  “Katy Perry Wide Awake,“ Jason Durolo Rollin Solo” and others along those same lines. Listen to this mix often and loud. Sing along at the top of your lungs and you’ll feel better every time you do.

Go Out Dancing

Grab your girlfriends and go out dancing! Ignore the boys, because the night is about just having fun. If you don’t like club dancing, try a salsa or swing club. Most have a beginner’s lesson (often complimentary) before the night begins. Plus, experienced dancers are always happy to help a beginner join in the fun.

Things You May Want to do, But Really Shouldn’t

  • Ruin his car like in “Before he cheats” by Carrie Underwood.
  • Throw all his things in a giant bonfire
  • Take out an ad in your local paper giving his name and saying he has several STDs and/or is just plain terrible in bed
  • Send awkward free informational pamphlets to his work everyday

Any of these things, or others along the same thought, are momentarily satisfactory, but will result in you sinking to his level, which is way beneath you. Be the bigger person and move on. He’s not worth your time.

Here are some signs of a  cheater:

While on the phone with a friend, they giggle/laugh and say, “You’re so crazy” frequently. Usually, after such conversation, suddenly have to run to the corner store to grab something completely unnecessary.

  • They have cheated on everyone in their past, yet insist that they are not cheating on you.
  • They tell you every detail of every single phone conversation they just had. Ex: “That was such-and-such. They were just calling to say hi, etc….”
  • Every single contact on their phone that ISN’T family is of the same gender they are. (Yes they will change the girls name to a guys name)
  • Their recent calls/messages/emails are always empty, yet they remain super busy, and when you ask about ignored calls/texts they constantly say “I never got it.” This occurring every so often isn’t bad, but every day, a few times a day is a little sketchy.
  • When getting a call/text at odd hours, usually from one of those same-gendered friends mentioned above, they say, “It’s just a friend from around the way/back home” and home is 3 hours ahead.
  • They get angry and defensive when the subject of trust comes up, even if it’s not in reference to your relationship. It usually looks a little like this: “That’s BS. You should just trust someone. If you don’t trust them completely, then you should just leave!” There are other variations, too.
  • Their phone and computer are top-secret, FBI protected and absolutely untouchable. Touching either of them is punishable by being struck down by the wrath of God.
  • The money is funny. It’s either missing, or isn’t matching up with what they’re saying.  For example, saying they’re working all these extra hours BUT have no extra money.
  • When out in public, they suddenly refuse to hold your hand or act in any way like a couple.
  • They become very particular about their appearance, changing their wardrobe, cologne/perfume, etc. ( this is another big one)
  • When arriving home, they simply say “Hello” and head straight to take a shower without a hug or kiss.

Chances are if you are suspicious to begin with, it means one of two things: You have SERIOUS trust issues, or they probably are cheating.

Katy Perry’s Wide Awake….The Meaning Behind The Song…..

Posted in Dating, Love Hate, Narcissist/Sociopath with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on October 16, 2012 by sexandmiami

I usually don’t do song reference post . But for anyone who as been with a sociopath this song cuts to the core.

When you are with a sociopath the beginning can be like floating on cloud 9. What comes later is like falling into hell.

Below quoted from Google.com

She was in the grip of sociopathic liar who made her feel loved but never loved her at all
and now she knows what he is and God knows what she went through. That is what this
 song is about. Been there done that. When you realize you have been in a relationship with such a creature it is like waking up on the “Concrete”.

Meaning, Main Idea, and Message of The Song

“Love is blind,” that’s what an old aphorism says. The saying means that when people fall in love they cannot see something or someone objectively. With love in mind, people can see something which is just good as perfect. Influenced by love, people will see someone who is not so beautiful as the prettiest person in the world.
Not only in terms of physical appearance, the aphorism also applies in terms of attitudes. The most obvious example is how people adore celebrities. Of course those celebrities, either singers or actresses or actors, have dark sides. But, as you can see, people seem not to care about celebrities’ dark sides. They adore them as if they are perfect. However often those celebrities are reported to behave inappropriately, people’s admiration to them seems not to subside. It happens because people love them. And love is blind.
Well, this Katy Perry’s Wide Awake song seems to tell about similar phenomenon. The phrase ‘Wide awake’ in the song represents the situation after a girl is free from blind love she previously had to her boy. In other words, when she fell in love with the boy, she felt like she was dreaming or blind. Everything seemed to be so sweet. And now she is awake, wide awake. She is not dreaming anymore. Yes, everything doesn’t look beautiful as it was. Situation is not as comfortable as it was. She realizes she was with a sociopath who lied and felt no emotion, and it hurts badly to know that everything was beautiful just because she was dreaming. Worse, she had dreamed for so long. Waste of time. But, the most important thing is that she is awake and trying to hold on and to see the bright side of everything she has been through.
What Katy shows us with this song, if you get the meaning, is that sociopaths walk among us. There are famous ones too. But also that the pain of experiencing a relationship with one hurts all the same, and is life changing . Money and fame can’t even take away the pain. When it hits you it’s kind of like falling from a cloud and hitting the concrete.
WIDE AWAKE- Katy Perry
I’m wide awake (x3) Yeah, I was in the dark I was falling hard With an open heart I’m wide awake How did I read the stars so wrong
I’m wide awake And now it’s clear to me That everything you see Ain’t always what it seems I’m wide awake Yeah, I was dreaming for so long
(Pre-Chorus) I wish I knew then What I know now Wouldn’t dive in Wouldn’t bow down Gravity hurts You made it so sweet Till I woke up on On the concrete
(Chorus)
 Falling from cloud nine Crashing from the high I’m letting go tonight (Yeah I’m) Falling from cloud 9 .  I’m wide awake Not losing any sleep I picked up every piece And landed on my feet I’m wide awake Need nothing to complete myself – nooohooo
I’m wide awake Yeah, I am born again Outta the lion’s den I don’t have to pretend And it’s too late The story’s over now, the end
(Pre-Chorus) I wish I knew then What I know now
Wouldn’t dive in Wouldn’t bow down Gravity hurts You made it so sweet Till I woke up on On the concrete
(Chorus) Falling from cloud nine Crashing from the high I’m letting go tonight I’m Falling from cloud 9
Thunder rumbling Castles crumbling I am trying to hold on God knows that I tried Seeing the bright side I’m not blind anymore
(Chorus) Falling from cloud nine Crashing from the high (Ya’ know) I’m letting go tonight I’m falling from cloud 9
 I’m wide awake (x5)

Why I didn’t dump him first…and what you could learn from me.

Posted in Dating, Love Hate, Narcissist/Sociopath with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on October 10, 2012 by sexandmiami

There were many times I wanted to break-up with my ex. I almost feel like I waited for him to do it, because I didn’t have it in me to hurt him. From his woe-is-me stories, he had been bullied in school his whole life. He never had any friends and he did not have a mom growing up, and his dad never showed him much love. He also just came home from the Army after serving in Iraq for 2 years and being dishonorable discharged for something he was very evasive about. I never did learn the whole story with that. I was all he had and he told me everyday. Can you say RED FLAG. Why I didn’t run as fast as I can still amazes me. Yes my head said RUN, but my heart said take care of him, help him he needs you.

This is a top 10 list of warning signs that were there, but that I chose to overlook for some reason I can’t even explain. When I think of these things, I should have ran as fast as I can and never looked back.

#1 THE SEX SUCKED! nuff said! When you want to experiment sexually with your guy and he says “baby that’s what sluts do” about anything sexual RUN and RUN fast. No man in love or otherwise will turn down any suggestion you have for sex trust me. Unless they are gay or bi or can only get turned on by fucking couples<—(this is a whole other story not for this post.)

#2 When he has no friends BIG RED FLAG because then you are suppose to have no friends either….duh RUN.

#3 When you go to get your tire changed and they discover a GPS device under your car. “Baby I put that there in case the car gets robbed” umm ok what are you Lojack! RUN

#4 He latches on to you like a tick on a labrador. When the guy can’t be without you it’s a RED FLAG, you may think its sweet at first, but trust me you will feel suffocated eventually.

#5 When he does not like your friends and he tolerates your family RUN as fast as you can.

#6 If he checks himself out in the mirror more than you RUN girl RUN.

#7 If he compares you to anybody. As in you can’t expect me to be as attracted to you as girls my age. Umm yeah I can we do live together.RUN  RUN RUN. After this one he threw himself on the floor and begged me not to leave him insisting that was not what he said!!

#8 He lets you pay his bills for him because he lost his job and seems to be fine with your offer to do so. It’s great to be able to afford to help the person you care about, but if they seem too comfortable like it was expected, RUN girl RUN.

#9 He thinks he is better looking and smarter then everybody else. Seriously you need to wake up and just RUN fast! When a man is conceded it is such a turnoff . It’s fine to joke around or to be confident, but when they really think they are the shizz, RUN girl RUN.

#10 If you find your guy flirting online at all GRAB HIS SHIT AND THROW IS ASS OUT THE DOOR, and then RUN!! When this happened he literally slept outside the door to prove how much he loved me. He begged me not leave him and stated I am not signing the divorce papers!… umm we only live together.

There were so many RED FLAGS these are just my top 10. At the end of the day I couldn’t break his heart, so I let him break mine instead.

The best part of all of this is anyone after him, and I mean anyone has been better than him 🙂

An Exercise in Forgivness…

Posted in Dating, Love Hate with tags , , , , , , , on August 25, 2012 by sexandmiami

A Definition of Forgiveness That We Can All Live With

Forgiveness. It’s such a hard thing to do, but it can be so liberating to the soul. What makes it difficult for most of us to do is the way we define it. We think of forgiveness as meaning that we should say all is forgotten and things will go back to what they were. This Biblical definition of forgiveness is very hard for most of us to swallow. How can you forget the unforgettable? How can you forgive the unforgivable? To enjoy the benefits of forgiveness, however, we needn’t go that far. All that’s really required is that we make the decision to move forward, to let go of the old hurts. We don’t have to condone what’s been done. What’s wrong is still wrong. We don’t have to invite the person back into our lives or even be friendly with them. What we do have to do is allow ourselves to release all the negative emotions associated with that person. As long as we hold onto the pain, we are choosing to allow that person’s past actions to continue to hurt us. We can also choose to stop letting them hurt us. That’s a definition of forgiveness that’s more doable for those of us who are less than saintly.

Here is an exercise you can do right now to let go of pain and begin to regain your life:

Make a list of those who have hurt you and how:

________________ hurt me by___________________________________________.

Now, go to a quiet place where you can be alone and think of each of these painful situations. Think of these in detail, allow yourself to feel the hurt. Then place yourself in the other person’s shoes. What do you think motivated them to behave the way they did? Were they abused themselves? Do they suffer from a mental illness? What fears and insecurities motivated their behavior? Now, think of how they are stealing your personal power. Does this make you angry? Do you want that to stop? Yes! Now, fill out this part of the exercise for each person on your list. Speak the words out loud as if you are speaking directly to them.

________________, I now understand why you behaved the way you did and I am sorry that you are so filled with pain that feel you must inflict it on others in order to regain your own power. I refuse, however, to let you hurt me anymore. I am choosing to let go of the pain you have caused me, for my own sake. I realize that letting go of this pain does not minimize or condone your bad behavior. It does, however, validate my own worth as a person and my right to finally be free of your abuse. I am choosing to take back my personal power so that I may heal. I now release all the hurtful emotions I feel regarding your behavior. I am now free to heal and move on. Only you will know when you have truly forgiven someone for the hurt and pain they have caused you. But this is something to think about.

How do you completely get over someone you love when they never TRULY loved you….

Posted in Dating with tags , , , , , , on August 2, 2012 by sexandmiami

  • First realize that there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. If someone is not interested in you it is in your best interest to find someone who does love and adore you for who you are. Know that you are worth it, and there are plenty of people who will love you. Never settle for someone who is not treating you and respecting you the way you deserve.
  • Ask yourself what might be in his head or his heart; it takes two people to be in a relationship and even though you feel the way that you do, maybe it was meant to be this way. Save your love for someone who feels the same way about you!
  • In my case, I know I deserve better. I tell myself “He isn’t worth my love, he’s a liar and a sociopath and lying is all he knows how to do so I guess that’s that.”
  • It’s not about getting over a person, it’s about feeling good about yourself. It’s about knowing that you are the most important and you need to be happy. If this other person doesn’t feel the same way, it doesn’t really matter.
  • Tough circumstance – being in love with someone who does not feel the same way as you do. It’s not a problem – you can fix those, this is almost like “it’s raining outside” – just have to deal. Objective advice: If someone doesn’t feel the same way as you do – walk off. Don’t even give them the privilege of friendship because you’ll suck yourself back into the delusion. Do things for yourself, keep busy, bury yourself in work and keep searching for what you really want and need. Don’t do what I have done..
  • It is strange when you are hurting from rejection, to hear someone say move on things will be fine. No matter how much you love him, he never loves you back. For all those wondering what went wrong Just stop wondering say it really loud “HE IS JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU”. Only when one stops chasing and pursing someone who doesn’t love you, will you open the door to that perfect person who will love you back with the same intensity that you will love him.
  • If you believe in destiny then you have know that things happen when they are meant to be. People part for reasons beyond human comprehension but the reality remains if you are meant to love each other and be with each other, it will happen. That’s the power of destiny. Love always wins. Love is important and only it counts.
  • The older I get, the more I believe that some people are full of the capacity to love – like me – and others are incapable of it in the romantic sense, for whatever reason. Fear of commitment. A distorted view of freedom. The desire to stay young forever? A deep unwillingness to give themselves over to another (aka, selfish)? It is an absolute rock and a hard place. Loving someone who doesn’t love you back is the most impossible situation imaginable, especially when the love is so strong you are a slave to it.
  • I went through this . For those of you whose situation is similar, this is what I suggest: Deal with reality. Stop hoping, dreaming, etc. Pray and tell God that you forgive them for not being able to love you. Ask God to take this from you – and He will. Then continue to deal with reality. Don’t tell yourself, maybe someday… they’ll change… True love accepts the person for who they are, even when they are evil and they don’t love you. It means accepting reality. When you love and accept reality at the same time, you are forced to move on. When you deal with reality and move on without love, you take bitterness with you. When you love without dealing with reality, you hurt yourself. Love the other person, Accept the reality and pray to God for the wisdom and strength you’ll need to do that continuously until it ceases to become a problem.
  • Try not to be in contact, its almost like an addiction. You think that one little text will do no harm but the pain when he doesn’t reply will just make things worse. That would be my advice.
  • There is one more thing I can recommend. There are times when you feel very weak and feel you need to talk to that other person even though they may have just hurt you again, you don’t know why you want to talk to them, you just do. I’ve been able to get by these weak moments by writing down exactly what I’m feeling at the time, it comes out in a jumble of feelings and thoughts, some not so pleasant, but in the end it actually helps and I don’t feel to call the person anymore. For everyone out there, keep strong and keep your head up, there are better days ahead.
  • Tough one. If we know for a fact there is no hope for a mutual love, then why torture yourself. Move on. Treat it like a divorce. FORCE yourself to live and keep meeting people. You owe it to yourself to be available for when the right person does come along. Love is like a bus stop, there’s always going to be another opportunity for the bus to stop again — if we are ready for it at the bus stop. Sometimes we don’t ever think we could possibly find someone better than that one we are in love with that doesn’t return the love back, but that’s not true. We just won’t be ready to find it if we are pining for a love that is not healthy or returned. We owe it to ourselves to always know we deserve what’s best and healthy.
  • We all have had heartaches that hurt bad and SUCK! A broken heart is never fun. Life goes on. We have to as well. We owe it to ourselves to know we simply go on. We will meet another person but we shouldn’t while we are hurting. We’ll often end up not being as clear headed. We want someone to love us and to feel wanted, but that’s a potential for another mess. Or, you could end up hurting someone they way you were hurt. When your heart is mended, you’ll know. Every single day we get just a tiny bit better. Ok, maybe not every day, but if we can just make it from one day to the next and keep doing it, pretty soon we will feel better, if only a little, but that’s a start to total healing.
  • You accept yourself as you are, love yourself for who you are, forgive yourself for decisions and actions that have brought you pain, never settle for anything less then what you desire and deserve. Love is all about timing, make yourself the best person you can be both mentally and physically and do it for yourself no man. Once you do that, you will no longer waste your time on men who do not see you for who you are. You will see yourself as a beautiful women that has so much to offer the right man. But to be able to get over lost love you have to be able to forgive yourself, whether it was your fault or not for the break up. You also must make a conscious effort to get him out of your life. Keeping him as a friend will bring only more pain, this is from experience.
  • Let him go, delete his name off your cell phone off your email, put the pictures away. It is your choice to be miserable about the situation, which for the first few months everyone chooses to be sad. I chose to be sad for over a year when the man I loved told me he no longer loved me. But you can also make the choice to be happy, but only you can do that. You have one life why sit there and waste it on a man who can’t see all facets of your beauty. You have one life to be happy, love yourself, forgive yourself and you will see that love will radiate and men will be attracted to that. Good men will be attracted to your positive self worth. And that positive self worth gets rid of all the baggage from past relationships that ruin current ones. But this is a choice, a conscious choice to leave the past and be happy and only you can make it. Know it wont be easy, but in the end you will have the love you have always desired.
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I have an angel on my shoulder but a devil in my head…..

Posted in Dating, Love Hate with tags , , , , , , , on June 5, 2012 by sexandmiami

I am a believer in what comes around goes around. I believe that when you do something wrong you will pay the price somewhere down the road . Karma will bite you in the ass when you least expect it. This is why I aways tried to be honest and treat everybody I meet with respect and kindness. But what about when somebody hurts you to the core . When somebody does the unforgivable? We are told in order to heal we must forgive. I don’t believe that everything is forgivable. I am not sure that I can forgive some things that have been done to me.

What about when the person that did these unforgivable things to you starts to face the karma and you hear about it?  You hear about their suffering and that they lost their job, car, possessions. And you cant help but grin and that some type of justice was served.

You are happy they are finally getting paid back for things they did to you in the past. Is this wrong? To be happy that the person that hurt you beyond repair is finally getting what they deserve and you are happy to hear it.  I think we’re put on this earth to learn lessons.  One of my lessons is to learn to let go of resentment and hate, let go of the pain that is inside,  just let it go. That statement is so much easier said then done. So right now I will take a little joy to hear that he lost his job, his car , his possessions and has no money.

There is a part of me that would love to say” How does it feel”? How do you like it!. Man that karma she is a bitch , but she does not forget and she will strike when you least expect it. So do your best,  be a good person. Learn to love more and be kind and respectful to people . Have integrity and spread love and positivity to the people you come in contact with.

Posted in Book Reviews with tags , , , , , , on May 31, 2012 by sexandmiami

Very moving post from a fellow blogger